Life is not a puzzle. We are rarely given immediate visual cues if something isn’t working or if a situation just isn’t right. Instead we are allowed to push these pieces together, forcing the integrity of each one to change; trying when trying will only make things harder in the end. Often times we are allowed to make unstable bonds, finding out later that that putting those two pieces together compromised the entire foundation we had been trying to build in the first place.
We will not become violently ill if we force ourselves to go to a job that we dread every single day of our lives, and we will not be struck by lightning if we continue to go back to that person that represents everything that is dysfunctional in our lives. We are allowed to become numb to self-destruction and are given the freedom to do absolutely nothing with the life we have been given. We will not be alerted to a bad decision by seeing just how that decision doesn’t fit in with the other pieces of our lives, and we are not given a tangible array of other decisions to replace it with.
We have to be able to know. Know when things are working and know when it is within our power to change them. Know when we are forcing an outcome and not simply being open to the array of possibilities that life is able to provide us with. Know when free will has become a hindrance instead of an open door to all that is good in this world.
This, I am learning, is quite a tall order…